How Appropriate...

I write my last blog, I'm a little upset thinking about all the crap that's going to happen. I plug my ipod in and here's the song that comes on. The Beatles ALWAYS know the right things to say. Nothing is going to change my world. NOTHING. :)



Words are flying out like endless rain into a paper cup
They slither while they pass
They slip away across the universe
Pools of sorrow waves of joy are drifting thorough my open mind
Possessing and caressing me

Jai guru deva om

Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world

Images of broken light which dance before me like a million eyes
That call me on and on across the universe
Thoughts meander like a restless wind inside a letter box they tumble blindly as they make their way across the universe

Jai guru deva om

Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world

Sounds of laughter shades of life are ringing through my open ears exciting and inviting me Limitless undying love which shines around me like a million suns
It calls me on and on across the universe

Jai guru deva om

Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world
Nothing's gonna change my world

Jai guru deva
Jai guru deva

One week left... :(

I have one week left of school and I'm done. On the same page I have one week of college left and I'm done. Next week will be so bittersweet. I want to come back next year and I'm hoping that some of the friends that I have made here will help make that happen, but I don't know if the principal thinks I'm qualified enough, which kind of hits my self esteem. It's so damn stressful to think that in a matter of one week I wont have a job. Maybe knowing a head a time makes it better? I'm hating all this negative energy.

Positive thoughts. Positive thoughts.

MMMMMMM much better! LOL!

My undergrad is almost done. Monday will be my last class. I will officially have a college degree. Crazy. I'm the only one in my immediate family to obtain a college degree. I always knew it would happen, but now that it's here I can't believe it's happening! Because of me going to school, I have inspired my mom to get her degree and my sister to start school. Yeah for them!

I also talked with my good friend Karisa who happens to be my advisor for my graduate program. I start October 12th for my first class in my Masters. It feels so good to know that my life is starting to fall into place. Let's just hope I have that 4th grade class next year. (I need you all to put out some positive thoughts out there for me to land this 4th grade spot for the next school year!)

(DO IT!)

My soundtrack... Not bad!

My Life Playlist
1. Open your library (iTunes, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that’s playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don’t lie and try to pretend you’re cool…

(God, I hope My Neck My Back doesn't come on any of these!)

•Opening Credits: Blessid Union Of Souls- I believe

•Waking Up: Across the Universe Soundtrack- Revolution

•First Day of School: Glee Soundtrack- Saftey Dance

•Falling in Love: Mariah Carey- One Sweet Day

•Fight Song: Twilight Soundtrack, Paramore- I caught myself

•Prom: Jewel- Foolish Games

•Life: Jason Mraz- Make it Mine

•Mental Breakdown: Now CD, Creed- With Arms Wide Open

•Driving:Colbie Caillat- Realize

•Flashback: Janet Jackson- Again

•Getting Back Together: Glee Soundtrack- Home

•Losing Your Virginity: Now CD, J-Lo- Love Don't Cost A Thing

•Wedding: Across The Universe Soundtrack- Hold Me Tight

•Birth of Child: Eclispe Soundtrack, Beck and Bat for Lashes- Let's Get Lost

•Final Battle: Britney Spears- Everytime

•Death Scene: Eclispe Soundtrack, Fanfario- Atlas

•Funeral: Jason Mraz- Life is Wonderful

•End Credits: Gwen Stefani-Hollaback Girl

Funny things kids say....

While on the playground today, I was walking by and overheard a little 2nd grader yell...

You, you, NIPPLE HEAD.

huh? Can anyone tell me what a nipple head is?!

Venting is good for the soul...

I've done a pretty good job at making this blog have posts that are only positive. I have really made an effort to not bitch and moan about the frivolous things that upset me in my life. I have really tried to release and let go of stupid people that have made me pissed. This post is not one of those. I was furious and I need to vent to those of you who are my Twilight buddies.



Facebook is a funny thing. It could be the best thing in your life, reuniting you with long lost friends and family, or it could be the devil creating more drama than you know what to do with. Yesterday all it did was cause drama for me.



I posted this picture yesterday. I was having a great day and wanted to share the picture with my cousin who was just talking about it with me on Twitter. She even commented about the picture.

(I think the caption was something like "I love looking down at my phone!")

Last night while going to dinner with Robby he said did you see my post on (insert girls name here) facebook. I was shocked that I didn't see this post. I'm usually the one who asks Robby that. I went onto the computer to see the post and here is what this girl stated.

I feel bad for the husbands of women who love actors/imaginary characters more than they're own men. How do they feel when you're acting like a teenager, putting someone else on your wall/computer/whatever? How much are you showing your love by swooning over another guy?

WHAT? Apparently she posted that about a half an hour after I posted the picture. Who the eff is she to say anything, she doesn't even know me.

Robby, the sweet man he is, posted this...

Oggling a celebrity from afar is more acceptable for girls than it is for guys. Girls look at a guy like Rob Pattinson/Zach Effrron, etc. and think, "Man he's the most, he's dreamy, etc. lol" and are typically void of any overt sexuality. I think that level is ok, even if that "level" of swooning manifests itself through screen savers, and bookmarks.

Guys are not capable of this type of affection. Guys skip straight to the sex part. This is why it is different for a guy to have a big "crush" on a celeb, compare to a girl. There are still plenty of couples out there that handle their "celeb crushes" without jealousy, or bitterness. But I would say that it is more of a one way street for women. It's sad to hear that someone would leave a spouse because they were not enough like a celebrity, but there are fucking crazy ass people in the world, so what are you going to do.

In the meantime, I don't have a problem being Cherice's Edward because I give her plenty that that cold, blood sucking bastard can't!!!

Here's what bugs me. Yes, I may take the oggling a bit far. I can't help it. He's hot. So what that I have a pillow case on my pillow of Edwards face, all the books, decals on my car, currently planning a trip for the Twilight Conventions with me buddies....WHO CARES. It makes me happy. I don't shove it down anyone's throat. If you don't like it, then don't follow me on FB. More people need things in their lives that make them happy.

My wonderful, talented, Edward of a husband makes me the most happiest, and I've posted PLENTY of things about him. I can say that after 13 years together I still get butterflies when he walks into the room. I still swoon over him.

Edward/Robert Pattinson makes me happy. A small fraction of what my Robby does to me, but still makes me happy. I can live in a fantasy world for a couple of hours. It's like I get lost in the books, movies, and stories. -A lot of people do.

Needless to say I have deleted her from FB. Petty? Eh, she's not an important enough of a person to even deal with. I have people who love me for me and accept my Robward obsession just fine. I am releasing and letting go of her attempt to draw drama to my life. This is the last post about that.

BTW, I think I may be planning a trip to Seattle for the Twilight Convention. There's one in Anaheim, but how freaking cool would it be to go to Forks?!

What is it about him?!

mmmmm, Eclipse. You can say that I'm a fan. I am all eyes and ears whenever I see or hear anything Twilight, Saga, New Moon, or Eclipse. How did this obsession happen? How did I end up dreaming about Edward Cullen/Robert Pattinson almost 6 nights a week whilst snuggling my Edward Cullen Pillow?

Perhaps it could be the fact that I've been to the movie theater oh, I don't know, 6 times to see the damn Eclipse movie. 6 blissful times to see my Edward grace the big screen. He's got his hooks in me, and I don't want to move. Eclipse = fantastic.

What makes a normal girl like myself go ape shit over this beautiful, handsome, charismatic creature-nonetheless go and spend $9.50 6 times?

Robert Pattinson is one of a kind. The minute his chiseled features comes onto the screen I squeal like a little girl. He is just beautiful. He plays Edward perfect.

Every girl thinks about who she is going to marry when she gets older. We all think about Prince Charming coming to rescue us poor girls-our parents grounded us and if only Prince Charming came and rescued us from our room. (don't laugh, you know you all thought about that...)

Then we get a bit older, wiser in our youth and dream about a man who will sweep you off your feet and be the perfect gentleman to you and your family. Someone who stares into your eyes and sees no flaws, just perfection. (surprisingly enough, I have that someone now!)

...and then Edward Cullen comes into our lives. Prince Charming + the perfect gentleman = women swooning.

It's all we ever wanted, everything we concocted in our imaginations.

Look how he looks at her...